Aspects

Hell, how I ‘love’ everything esoteric!

I don’t know why.

There is something which bugs me in it. Something indefinable but something bad to the core. I don’t know how I got the feeling, but it sure makes my skin crawl. I visualize people entering darkened caves in the dead of night (somewhat along the lines of Umberto Echo’s description in his Foucault’s pendulum) with a terrible air of self importance and utmost secrecy. The image makes me shiver; there is something sinister in it.

Is it a kind of disease with me, this distaste for things esoteric; I can’t get rid of it no way? I have tried very hard at it. But when some one comes up with something esoteric I go faint with fright (like a damsel in distress). I look at it with extreme terror. May be it is because I am not very bright upstairs. Only the brightest among people understand the need for secrecy, it is linked to power, to politics, to bucks. They are fucking big things in the world.

Somehow I was not very interested in these from the beginning. May be I do not have what it takes to be a charlatan or it may be it is the other way round, I may be a real dumb head not knowing the importance of things secret.

I not mysterious, I am the every day Narayana, I am the common man. (I might be the mass man of Marcus et al. the faceless one, the one who superseded the renaissance individual, who is part of the general population)

I doubt that my level of intelligence is a bit low. Every Tom, Dick and Harry and every Jane, Alice and Mary have discovered this one flaw in my otherwise blemish less character. I am dumb where every one else is intelligent. I am democratic where every one is reticent. My own analysis of the situation is that I am at a loss on many of the secret aspects of life. As they say in astrology some maleficent influence could be continuously ‘aspecting’ my Buda, my lord of intelligence.

But then that is the very reason I need everything in black and white. If there is something I can’t understand in the world I would have to visit here once again to learn it. For why else are people can’t understand everything that they come across in life. Do you have any idea?

That would establish the doctrine of reincarnation. No reply from Toms and Janes.
But other than being damned adamant about their own importance in life none of them has yet shown any great genius in understanding the basic problem of life.
But is there a basic problem in life? Well, well, well………… I would not want say anything on it. But I love my judges (love is only skin deep some say)
My good wishes to them. Let their fecundity prosper by all means.

Well back to our business, to tell you the truth, I hate secrecy were it is not needed. There are things where a bit of secrecy is all right. For example, you don’t want to show to the world what you are doing inside the toilet, and considering everything, it is not a bad feeing to have. There are a few other things too. But they are all about being ashamed in public. I can’t understand what is there in the esoteric doctrines that the followers have to be ashamed about. But they go about it in that way being very secretive.

Either their doctrines are not fit to be discussed in public or there is something bizarre in it. If it is so I would like to bring the unhealthy elements out. I just can’t believe that there could be anything in the universe which could be revealed to just a few selected idiots in any particular sect.

May be most would not agree!