Self doubts

Here I am, troubled by self doubts again.

But really, why are people like this, we do one thing and they guess some thing else. We want to help and they turn hostile!

Hostility turned inwards is hate, and hate can be a little too much to handle at times.

Here I was trying to help a poor bugger thinking he deserved it, and it turns out he doesn’t need it……

He does need it badly, but wouldn’t admit it; it amounts to the same thing. We get laughed at for what amount of good we did.

Well, I know, no sane person really cares about what others think of him and what he does, it is not that, it is the hidden animosity that is troubling. Not from others but the recipient. No, we don’t expect them to be servile because we did a favor to them -for the rest of their lives. That would be obscene. But at least we expect recognition.

Well, who does recognize whom these days! We do a good turn to somebody out of good will and we appear as the dumbest person alive!

My friends say I was crazy to do that. The problem is, people have become wise, and none expects any thing from any one other than by way of coercion.

That is acceptable, because there is no loss of face involved. I should have guessed it; none needs any crumbs of bread other than by way of the sweat of their ‘wicked’ brow.

Hello Satan, how are you! (Perhaps I am a little too self righteous?)